done!

Almost a year since I started working on it and now it’s done! I handed my thesis in on Monday and now I can just pray that there are no big flaws in it. I won’t know for about 3 months so I better stop worrying about it I guess.

It feels strange, being done with school and knowing you will never for the rest of your life do so much studying and learning by heart again…not that I’ll miss it!
It hasn’t really sunk in that I’m practically unemployed now until I find a job. Not that I’m bored…in fact I have so many things to do that I don’t even know where to start! And those don’t even include the big and necessary spring clean and packing up my school stuff.
I’m still waiting for the jubilant feeling to set in but maybe it will be the same as with all my exams…the longer I have been studying and working for them the less satisfying is a good result, at least that’s how it feels like for me (though my head knows it should be the other way around). Maybe because an A is after all just a mark on paper and in the end I just regret the days and weeks and months of my life wasted with forcing myself to work for it, when there are so many better, more colourful, more meaningful things to do.
God, I’m feeling philosophical today😉 Finishing a chapter of your life does that to you I guess.
And reading back over that it sounds much gloomier than I intended…I really do feel happy now and maybe a sense of accomplishment will follow soon. I did after all finish climbing that mountain, the size of which I could not even guess at when I started out five years ago.

If I’d known its size I wouldn’t even have started out.

14 thoughts on “done!

  1. Camille

    Congratulations!! I understand your feelings, but it really is a huge accomplishment and I’m sure you’ll be jazzed about it once they come back and tell you it’s brilliant.😉

    (And thank you for the compliments on my sundress and victory jumper! Both are projects that look more difficult than they actually are—the jumper is just a two-row lace pattern. I guess it’s the color changes that give the illusion of difficulty!)

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    1. tidytipsy

      Thank you! I really really hope it’s good, it would be so frustrating if it wasn’t after having spent nearly a year on it🙂
      I really love those shirred sundresses, I think I’ll try them this year. Knitting season is over for me but I saved that pattern for next fall!

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  2. Sarah Knight

    Hopefully all turns out for the best : )
    May your future, whatever that may be, be filled with success & prosperity.

    Love the picture with the snail (I’m a total sucker for snails).

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  3. Kai

    Da pack ich doch auch mal kurz meine super Englischkenntnisse aus :

    Congratulations!!

    Dann drück ich dir die Daumen für die Jobsuche! Und ich hoffe du aktualisierst dein Blog auch weiterhin in der Woche, damit ich auf der Arbeit was lesen kann!

    Die Schnecke ist übrigens klasse🙂 Auch wenn man bei 5 Jahren glaub ich nicht von langsam reden kann!

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    1. tidytipsy

      Hehe, well done😉 Danke, ich drück mir auch die Daumen😛 mal schauen wie es ausgeht, aber ich hoffe doch sehr dass ich auch weiterhin Zeit zum bloggen finde!! Macht nämlich auch Spass😉

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  4. bambooska

    Wow, congratulations! I’ve seen my close friends handing out their thesis and making their way out of college. I’m sure you’ll get a job soon. It’s a bit scary, isn’t it? Changing chapters of your life. I’m always scared about it but at the same time, very thrilled to be doing so.

    Will school be anything like that? I don’t know. School’s what I’ve been doing ever since I can remember. Good luck on finding a new job! Any field that you’re most attracted to?

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  5. Amber

    Congratulations on finishing your thesis!!! What an accomplishment! It is not a task I am ever likely to take on and I greatly admire those who do.

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  6. tidytipsy

    Thanks you three!! I do enjoy changing chapters but it’s definitely a little scary, not knowing what the next few months may bring.
    bambooska, I’m looking for a job in Human Resources, hopefully something involving projects and not only office work😉 But it’s pretty tough to get a good job when you want to stay in the area (my boyfriend’s got a good job here so we can’t move) and without a couple of years experience under your belt.

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  7. Marilynne

    I think you’re just burned out on school at the moment. Once you’re done, take a little vacation if you can. Learn who you, the former student, are now and whom you want to become.

    I think you’ll find the pleasure is becoming the person you studied to be. I hope photography is part of it.

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    1. tidytipsy

      Thanks Marilynn! I think you’re right and I am curious how I will feel about this in 6 months or a year…and where I’ll be!
      Isn’t it funny how quickly it changes who we are and then we have to go and find ourselves again? I believe I am a very different person than a year ago and still another than 5 years ago…though I guess in core we sort of stay the same. Does that even make sense?
      And photography will definitely be a part of it…I’m working hard to make it a part professionally but if it doesn’t work out it will always be a part of my personal life🙂

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