birthday post

My birthday was on Saturday. Last year I wrote a pretty elaborate post on my birthday and the changes in that year.
This year I seem to have a case of writer’s block. It was hard for me to even start this post. The past year has been pretty much what I had hoped for…steadier, quieter and less exciting than the years before.
This time last year I was still working in a very crappy job and distinctly remember my birthday as being another of those days where I was yelled at and made feel inadequate at the office. Thankfully I changed jobs in December and while I still have a challenging job it’s now challenging in a good way and I actually look forward to going to work in the morning…something I didn’t imagine was possible a year ago.
I think the changes and the growth were still there this year, just less obvious as it didn’t involve major life events like graduating or starting a job.

In fact, I guess the challenge is that with all those outward decisions made and things quieting down a little, all you’re left with is…yourself. Someone you paid little attention to when things were going topsy turvy. I admire people who seem so completely sure of who they are. I never seem to be, never seem to know myself that well.
Turning 27 I feel like crossing some invisible border. A lot of people my age already have kids, a mortgage, a plan. Time to sit down and think about how I want my life to be in the next years because for the first time it feels like it’s all up to me.

I’m not sure that’s a good thing yet.

13 thoughts on “birthday post

  1. lauren

    Happy Birthday! If it makes you feel better, I’m 30 and I don’t have any of those things and I don’t really want them yet (a mortgage I don’t ever want. I’d rather have freedom.) Don’t put too much pressure on yourself! (Even though I know what that’s like)

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    1. tidytipsy

      Lauren, that does make me feel better actually! It’s not really that I want these things right now, it’s more that I feel I should be sure what exactly I want at this point. But I’ll try to relax a bit😉

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  2. Amber

    Happy birthday! The things you want will come to you more and more as every year passes. In the meantime, you are leading a rich, full life and have so many things to be proud of.

    Just think, somewhere out there is at least one person, maybe even someone you know, looking up to you and how far you’ve come in your life at your age, and they’re measuring themselves against your achievements. For all the looking up to others we do, we sometimes forget that there are many people doing the same to us…

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  3. Claudia

    Don’t worry, you will find out, how your live’s gonna be anyway.
    Believe me – 38 is much worse than 27, and I’m even getting used to this….;-)

    You can’t really plan your live, because there a so many things, you will never think of in advance.

    C

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    1. tidytipsy

      Again, so true! I guess the funny thing is that up to now I always was planning in advance, planning my education, planning my future jobs, planning for just about anything was part of my life for so many years. I’m still planning of course but the big things are “done” for a while.
      Maybe it’s time to stop planning and just sort of float for a while and not think of it too hard😉

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  4. Neus

    Happy Birthday!! Step by step everything seems to get better! It’s very important to feel good at work!
    I’m 28 and some of my friends have babies too but another ones don’t stop travelling around the world! So everybody is doing their ways instead of being together (as it used to be) but I guess live is like this! Enjoy your new age!!

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    1. tidytipsy

      Thanks Neus! I does and it is! I guess the older we get the more different we get and naturally friends drift apart in everyday lives. We don’t see our friends as often but that doesn’t mean the friendship is less valuable. It’s probably even more valuable because everybody has to take pains to maintain it.

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  5. RosaMaria

    happy happy very belated birthday Kristina!
    well, in a couple of days I’ll have 35 and many times in my life I thought i was sure about decitions and the kind of life I wanted, but no. sometimes I feel bad about it but i think the best part is we are thinking and making a pause to see all the picture and making changes… never is late to start again🙂

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