Almost a year since I started working on it and now it’s done! I handed my thesis in on Monday and now I can just pray that there are no big flaws in it. I won’t know for about 3 months so I better stop worrying about it I guess.
It feels strange, being done with school and knowing you will never for the rest of your life do so much studying and learning by heart again…not that I’ll miss it!
It hasn’t really sunk in that I’m practically unemployed now until I find a job. Not that I’m bored…in fact I have so many things to do that I don’t even know where to start! And those don’t even include the big and necessary spring clean and packing up my school stuff.
I’m still waiting for the jubilant feeling to set in but maybe it will be the same as with all my exams…the longer I have been studying and working for them the less satisfying is a good result, at least that’s how it feels like for me (though my head knows it should be the other way around). Maybe because an A is after all just a mark on paper and in the end I just regret the days and weeks and months of my life wasted with forcing myself to work for it, when there are so many better, more colourful, more meaningful things to do.
God, I’m feeling philosophical today 😉 Finishing a chapter of your life does that to you I guess.
And reading back over that it sounds much gloomier than I intended…I really do feel happy now and maybe a sense of accomplishment will follow soon. I did after all finish climbing that mountain, the size of which I could not even guess at when I started out five years ago.
If I’d known its size I wouldn’t even have started out.
done!
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little home by hand 